i am still new at this web site and i am still trying to figure out what all the buttons do (LOL). i’m a senior in high school with hopes of going to college for possibly a career in graphics design. i have so many great ideas. but all these great ideas and hopes have all become a blur as of late. my heart is aching and the tears do not stop. my grandmother has passed away, but i was ok with it, she went peacefully and i know she is in a better place and is no longer suffering. and i just see it as my gaining of a guardian angel. my boyfriend of about 4 years, since the 8th grade, left me, has found somebody new (who is a complete b*tch and loves to lie) and wants nothing to do with me, or so he says. my first love and this is how it ends??. the new girl is not even a nice or cute girl. she’s got him so twisted around her fingers, and i thought he was stronger then that. although i know i’m allowing this to affect me, i cannot help the hurt i feel inside and i am losing focus.